Hi Everyone,
I’m still on board, reading “Food Jail” right now. i’m doing a lot better, eating most of my food before 4-5 p.m. Hubby wanted to go for ice cream a couple of times in the last few days. I went and got a single scoop of frozen custard, then ate some of his turtle sunday, that he left. However, I didn’t binge. I was tempted to eat when I got home but was able to resist, using a little “resistance” and prayer.
I have put on a little weight, maybe 5 lb. but am still not overweight. I am feeling much better about myself and my eating patterns. I have never read anyone who has written about “undereating” being the source of binge eating. I have been a feast/famine eater since high school, in the 60’s and never understood it until now, at age 62. The description and definition of an undereater fit me to a tee. I see how over the years I was always trying to cut back, miss meals, hold out until I was really hungry (which for me meant ravenous), then write everything down, daily, weigh it and report it by phone daily to a sponsor. That was food H—l.
I can see that for me, as with so many others, there is only one way out of disordered eating and that is to eat enough regularly, in order to allow your body to heal on a cellular level (or biochemically). I am so grateful to have learned that problems of disordered eating are mostly biochemical and not psychological in nature. Oh, I’m sure there are some whose eating is disturbed due to psychological reasons. But when those have been resolved and the problem remains, it’s not by going back and rehashing things again but rather to begin to eat healthily, often and early in the day, leaning more toward low fat foods, as time goes on. Initially, I’m not thinking too much about fat but I noticed I was eating way too many nuts, so I decided to make them pleasure foods for now.
I’m still eating some ice cream, but I go to the dairy to buy one scoop instead of buying it and having it home, being tempted to eat more. For now, I’m giving myself permission. If it becomes a problem or if my weight continues to creep up, I’ll try to leave it alone and eat that wonderful thick fat-free Greek yogurt that I discovered recently. It’s as good as ice cream! Yum.
Thank you again Jean. I am so blessed to have your books and this website for support. I’m going to begin leading a group for women having eating disturbances. I plan to require them to read your book(s).
God bless,
Grate-full
